Time flies... and it is towards the end of March. April is coming. Another months, it comes my new semester. I'm not ready yet... Feel myself getting older now. Within this few months... i'm totally busy with all my academic stuff. rushing for assignments, preparing this and that. Besides all the university stuff. Many things happened unexpectedly.
1st: Finally i shift house. House condition was awesome but the environment is not. I really do not know why my mum choose to buy that house... seriously is insecure. Both side of my house was empty. No one lives there. There is so many stealing case around there. Is hard to describe the feeling. I just do not want to go home. I am scare. Scare of everything.
One day, me and my sis was at home. I was busying with my own stuff in my room. My sis have her bath at bathroom. Suddenly, my house alarm ring. I was totally panic, nervous and scare. I went down to the alarm system to check which part of my house makes the alarm on. when i found that it was came from master bedroom were my sis taking her bath there. i cant hide my nervousness and keep knocking the door to ask my sis open. After i check everything, it was just a incident. My sis accidentally knock the window and cause the alarm ringing non-stop. I am really afraid and cry like there is no tomorrow. will i have phobia just because of this.??? I wants to move out from there.... really.
2nd: Sister starts her primary school life. everything i need to take care of her as mum was working. bring her to school, back from school, lunch and dinner are almost i am the one who arrange and settle. I know i had the responsibility to take good care of her.... but no one is gonna understand how i feel. i am her sister not mother or nanny... i need my own time to do my own stuff. i want freedom...!
3rd: Friendship. i do not care physically does not means that i don care mentally. different people have different point of view. people might interpret things in another way. that is why i choose to be quite, just listen. people might think that you are busybody and makes things worst. i do not want it. i experienced it many times. i am freak out ... you can think i am selfish or cruel or cold blood. i treat all my friend with sincere heart. everyone is my best friend...
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